The Birthday Blues Are Coming

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Yesterday it was my hubby’s birthday. This means it is 12 days until my birthday. Poor hubby is now going to have to listen to 12 days of me going “I’m so old”, “why would you want to be with an old lady like me” etc, etc.

Hubby is four years younger than me (get me with a toyboy!), but I think he looks younger than his 34 years. He is not bothered by his age, he is in his prime. Me on the other hand, I am almost middle aged!

I guess I don’t look too bad for almost 38, not too many wrinkles are showing yet and any grey hair is hidden under some colour. But I feel old. How am I 38, in my head I am still about 20, I certainly haven’t matured much. My son is officially an adult now, I have an adult son!

For women getting older is something that a lot of us worry about. We worry about how we look, the things we cannot do anymore and wonder if life has passed us by. I admit that I worry about these things, but the thing that bothers me most is have I let life pass me by without accomplishing anything?

My life has been pretty standard. I had a “normal” childhood, went through the usual teen stuff, met someone, had kids, got divorced, met someone new, got married again. Since my teens, I have never really known what I have wanted to do with my life. I have always loved reading and writing, but never had the confidence to try and find a career with them.

Now that I have found blogging, my days of feeling old are fewer. It has given me a new lease of life and has me feeling confident in what I am doing. I, for a change really believe I can make this a success. I have started vlogging too, something I never saw myself doing, but I love it.

So now I have decided that I may be getting older, but I am not going to let it bother me. I am going to put all that energy into making my life and my families life great. Life is not going to pass me by.

Take care everyone.

 

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